Join for FREE | Take the Tour Lost Password?
[x]

deviantART

 
:iconinnersakura27:

~InnerSakura27

one Big Freakin Ray of Sunshine!
ProfileGalleryPrintsFavesJournal
Sign up to follow this artist's work

I Hate Myself For Loving You... SOOO Much.

Sun Nov 1, 2009, 4:21 PM
  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: I Hate Myself for Loving You
  • Drinking: Water
I'm tired of this. I want to ask Matt out, but I just simply can't! I want to tell him that i liked him for 3 years, but another part of me, tells me that I'll ruin the greatest friendship with a guy!

I'm afraid he'll take my heart, throw it against the wall.
And also take away my pride for liking him.


That's why i hate myself for loving him. Especially, since both my sides tell me one thing, and then rush to the conclusion!!!


I want to love him.
I want to stay friends with him,

But I'll suffer the consequences by ruining a friendship
And also ruining my life.

:bulletpurple: I hate him.
:bulletpink: I love him.
:bulletpurple: He'll break your heart.
:bulletpink: But he's sweet, and he possibly won't turn me down.
:bulletpurple: He will turn you down.
:bulletred: LET'S NOT RUIN THE FRIENDSHIP HERE.


I just don't know anymore guys.. I'm sick of this. And i'm fucking crying as i type.

24 Comments

Devious Comments

love 1 1 joy 0 0 wow 0 0 mad 0 0 sad 0 0 fear 0 0 neutral 0 0
:iconrelic-angel:
Mood: Affection ~Relic-Angel Nov 1, 2009, 4:35:58 PM
Cheer up. Just listen to what your heart tells you and you'll find the answer for sure. I know it. Just have faith in yourself, alright? :hug:

--
:rose:And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause' I will never let you go...:rose:
:icon64cheese:
~64Cheese Nov 1, 2009, 6:34:24 PM
Well if you ask me, it's always better to say something. Just keep it short and simple. Even if he says no, you'll see that it's not entirely bad.
:icondarkballerinaqueen:
~DarkBallerinaQueen Nov 2, 2009, 12:19:58 PM
Oh, don't cry! :hug:
Yes, listen to your heart, dear. Besides, friendship includes honesty. I'll bet he feels the same way, maybe. ;)

--
Friends are just like tattoos, they stay with you forever. :)

When life gives you lemons, you make orange juice. :rofl:

REAL VAMPIRES DON'T SPARKLE. REAL VAMPIRES BURN UP IN THE SUN WITH DIGNITY. YOU KNOW IT'S TRUE. :D
:iconinnersakura27:
~InnerSakura27 Nov 2, 2009, 2:48:45 PM
Actually, no he does not.

My friends put him on 4 way calling, and i was bawling on the phone.

But at least he said we can be still friends.

I gave him a cookie. :}

--
There's nothing sadder than a sobbing waffle.
:icondarkballerinaqueen:
~DarkBallerinaQueen Nov 3, 2009, 8:35:55 AM
Oh my, I'm sorry, at least you're still friends! :hug: :hug: :hug:

--
Friends are just like tattoos, they stay with you forever. :)

When life gives you lemons, you make orange juice. :rofl:

REAL VAMPIRES DON'T SPARKLE. REAL VAMPIRES BURN UP IN THE SUN WITH DIGNITY. YOU KNOW IT'S TRUE. :D
:iconinnersakura27:
~InnerSakura27 Nov 3, 2009, 9:27:42 PM
I'm afraid that, that faith has died out, for he just wants to be friends.

I finally asked him, he said he wasn't ready, i understood, and we are just plain friends. :]

--
There's nothing sadder than a sobbing waffle.
:iconinnersakura27:
~InnerSakura27 Nov 3, 2009, 9:28:27 PM
It wasn't that bad when he said no, but i felt bad for him, for hearing me cry on the phone when i tired to tell him that everything was fine and dandy, while choking between each sob.

--
There's nothing sadder than a sobbing waffle.
:iconinnersakura27:
~InnerSakura27 Nov 3, 2009, 9:28:41 PM
At least..

--
There's nothing sadder than a sobbing waffle.
:iconrelic-angel:
~Relic-Angel Nov 3, 2009, 10:46:04 PM
Well, that's just as good. ^^

--
:rose:And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause' I will never let you go...:rose:
Previous Page123Next Page

Sponsored By Ninja Assassin

Journal History

Site Map