SO. since now i am in a happy mood, i feel like celebrating.


I'm still dying inside. hahaha... :{

GRANT HAS A dA Account!!! VISIT HIM. NOW.

Matt and I are friends.

I feel like rolling around in mulch for some odd reason... >.>

i feel fabulous. XDDD

OH WELL. D:<

Anyways, it felt weird for actually having school fully today. Like, for the past week and Monday-Tuesday we barely had school.

Even though i made it in the musical, it still sucks knowing i have to be a servant.

I feel light, as a feather!! XD

I feel very concerned for Grant, due to my friend stalking him in the hallways.


I had the quietest interestingest day today, and i couldn't make eye-contact with my english teacher. She scares me, and started calling me dumb.

Ludabeast: "Where are you post-it notes?"

Cat: "I don't ask questions or jot down things when i read."

Ludabeast: "So for 9 weeks, you haven't been thinking?! That's sad."

Cat: --is devastated and feels offended--

I HATE HER WITH PASSION.

I'm tired of this. I want to ask Matt out, but I just simply can't! I want to tell him that i liked him for 3 years, but another part of me, tells me that I'll ruin the greatest friendship with a guy!

I'm afraid he'll take my heart, throw it against the wall.
And also take away my pride for liking him.


That's why i hate myself for loving him. Especially, since both my sides tell me one thing, and then rush to the conclusion!!!


I want to love him.
I want to stay friends with him,

But I'll suffer the consequences by ruining a friendship
And also ruining my life.

I hate him.
I love him.
He'll break your heart.
But he's sweet, and he possibly won't turn me down.
He will turn you down.
LET'S NOT RUIN THE FRIENDSHIP HERE.


I just don't know anymore guys.. I'm sick of this. And i'm fucking crying as i type.

Tonight's the night, of the very nights, of 2 nights only night!!!! XD

TONIGHT IS FRIGHT HIKE!! And i am SO excited!


We;re doing a skit there, involving 'Alice in Wonderland', but more "spooky" (lol) and a little bit gory.

KAP will be Alice
Matt will the the Mad Hatter
Katie will be the March Hare
I'm gonna be the Cheshire Cat (obviously XD)
Matthew (other Matt) will be a Heart Guard
Grant is also a Heart Guard (eww Vampire....)
And Andrew will be the White Rabbit for the first night, then tomorrow my neighbor Nathan will replace him.


I'll upload a few pictures of the event too, along with the cast.

And hopefully it won't rain

Bored as hell, and yet have a wild imagination..

--Alright, let's set some whoopie cushions on fire.